A few lonely moments.

 Having not written anything in a while I have decided to make a come back for the 7^th time and actually sit and write something on this blog. Since my last entry I suppose much has happened but nothing of massive interest that I need announce on the internet as its about the equivalent of telling someone in a public toilet about your day; completely unnecessary and just plain awkward.

Instead I'm going to write about something I think everyone can or has been able to relate too at some point in their lives and that is to be lonely. I've come in to a period in my life where I am perhaps the loneliest I have ever been in my twenty-one years. Now, don't get me wrong I'm not at the point where all social interaction is with several cats, I'd say I'm a good few steps away from that at the moment.

Before loneliness comes boredom. For example I have been bored for the past couple of weeks and it was only when I started to become active with in that boredom such as writing scripts, drawing, guitar playing...Writing this blog that I discovered I was not bored at all but lonely. A kind of lonely where you feel closed off from the world, the people around you and more importantly, closed off from yourself. When feeling alone you have the sense of not being quite complete because unless you start talking to yourself or make a sock puppet friend, you miss having conversations and challenging your personal traits.

Most people tend to become motivated by another's words of wisdom. Talking with other people stimulates the mind and helps to shape what your views and morals are of the world. When spending so much time alone you lose this ability and begin to question the only thing that seems to matter, yourself. Being lonely traps you with in your own state of mind and you tend to dwell on your own thoughts. Until recently I had never understood why more people do not spend time to sit and think but perhaps it is of the fear of what one finds out from doing so that is so off putting to many.

Over the past few weeks I have learned to embrace the loneliness as it is not forever or permanent but a passing in life. The people who are lonely and feel like they will always and forever be need not to worry, if it's been so long then change something. The longer you think about being lonely the more you will realise that perhaps you're not lonely but just scared to move on to the next step of life, whatever that maybe. You just have to remember to take that step and make things happen.